Being Willing to Turn and Redirect

The new year is nearly upon us.  Always a good time to stop and reflect. 

Have I made the progress I wanted to make this past year? Have I played enough? Did I spend time with the people I love most? Did I learn to take myself a little less seriously? And mostly, did I sit with the question "What do I want?" often enough?

My year has been an adventure.  I took on a coaching client who became a creative partner,  and then we created something new in the world.  The Circle Tool.  Like new parents, we've spent the last 9 months watching it grow and develop.  During the next year we will be defining and clarifying how best to bring it to others. I am excited to watch it take shape.

Did you knnow that very often feelings of depression come from having tamped down your own creative, dynamic urge. In each of us is a sparky, jazzy self that wants to bring something new into the world.  When we ignore that part and push it aside, a deep, floating sadness comes into our being.  We make a lot of excuses--I didn't have time, there was not enough money, life got too complicated, I didn't have the right early parenting,  I just couldn't bring myself to .  . . 

In this depressive pool are all of the answers you need in order to swim out of it.  No denying--it takes courage, patientce, good support around you, and determination.  

Here is an example. During this past year I've once again re-engaged with how to bring something to the crazy market place out there.  I've spent hours watching Youtube videos and even buying into a few "miracle" courses that promise to send me to the golden arena of success. My Facebook feed is now flooded with this funneling offers.  

The further in I go the more I am sure that I will never get it right. It doesn't matter that I trust that I have great content and 45 years of experience helping others find their strength and presence.  So, early December I started watching Hallmark Christmas movies.   Whoops.  

Hallmark movies are a sign that I am in a depressive pool feeling frustrated and sad that I "can't" do what I want to do. 

Luckily, we live in a dynamic energy field that sometimes brings us what we need when we need it. This time it was in the form of two cool women on a podcast. The host is Emma Turton and her guest was Danielle Gardner. For over two hours I sat and listened, and they told me exactly what I needed to know in order to find my next steps forward. 

I can be myself. I can skip social media BS. I can bring in only the clients that I resonate with--and who resonate with what I am teaching. I can do it wrong. I can be myself.

OK. I'm in.

And here is my first post in a new blog. And coming soon--some tiny courses. 

What we need to remember is that life is a fluid, dynamic process.  We never arrive somewhere, or if we do we usually need a redirect and a new shiny thing to reach for.   Asking "What do I want" is required for every single day.  

And it is never more stuff.  Merry Christmas all!